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Kidney stones (or the bane of my life)
Aug. 14th, 2010 11:42 pm Off back up to my second home in Yorkshire tomorrow (sunday) aka Pinderfields Hospital. My third kidney stone operation there should be happening on monday and hopefully this will be the last one i need for several years at least, with the frequency i develop them i don't think i will ever be completely free of them sadly. Anyway yes hopefully this stay won't be anywhere near as nighmarishly long as my stay a year last march/april where a 1 week stay turned into 6 weeks of hospital food! This time they're going in via my stoma rather than keyhole into my kidney so that alone should shorten my stay, well that's what i keep telling myself every time i start to panic anyway. It will be fine i'm sure and at least i'll get a few nights of comfortable sleep in a bed rather than on the sofa which has to be a good thing at least. Sure do wish i could take my woofs with me though...
Looking something up quickly on LJ turned into a night spent reading old entries, remembering things i'd forgotten i'd put and yes revisiting some old hurts as well as some good things, seeing me talk about the decline of my mental and physical health so long ago makes it seem so surreal that it's been going on for so long. Writing about tests needed & had before going on a waiting list and just going on to slow release morphine back in Dec '05 when i then didn't get the operation it was all leading up to/i needed until October almost 4yrs later is madness, how did i/we do it? It seems like the operation was ages ago when it was in fact only about 8mths, i guess that is the answer, time passes so fast and you do just do it, you get on with it and live you life day to day, month to month.
Looking back so much in my life has changed since i first started my lj back in 2002 a lot of it for the better but some for the worse and looking back, rereading those old entries does make me wistful for what i had then especially in terms of health/ability but also of the people i was around some of those are still in my life, still in touch but others aren't and some of them i miss despite the fact they've not been around during the worst bits.
Anyway just rambling here.....
Looking back so much in my life has changed since i first started my lj back in 2002 a lot of it for the better but some for the worse and looking back, rereading those old entries does make me wistful for what i had then especially in terms of health/ability but also of the people i was around some of those are still in my life, still in touch but others aren't and some of them i miss despite the fact they've not been around during the worst bits.
Anyway just rambling here.....
My new Dreamwidth account...
Jun. 29th, 2010 07:31 amSo i *finally* followed the flow to Dreamwidth from LJ (bi_dancer13 on there), new blog, new name, old memories currently being imported (access to all old ljers that are on my lj friends list but not new DW accounts unless public cos of so many filters). I'm ready to start again with this, the time is right and tbh i don't really mind if anyone is reading or not i just want a place to write either publicly or privately.
Sonia xx
Sonia xx
